Is it Spring yet? I'm ready to come out of the woodwork ... I think?

Is it Spring yet? I'm ready to come out of the woodwork ... I think?


Yes, it's been awhile. So what? It's not like you have missed me, but I’m pretty sure I missed you. Just haven't been able to show it lately. Well, with all that being said it's hardly a great introduction, but an assertion.

There have been a number of things that have come up in the past several months or so ago since my last post here. Let's just name them off shall we? Job/career, the economy, that State of Massachusetts, taxes; which is kinda redundant figuring their order. Money, finances, vacation, health; yes, I'm getting older; news flash--so is everyone else. All the old people say that. I'm coming to terms with it, not really fighting with it, but in a way where I make room for everything else. It's not the end of the world and I am still very young at heart and most of me is still in the very young stage so let's press on.

I’ll talk State of Massachusetts in the next blog. That’s a source that really gets me going to the extent of pissing me right-the-hell-off. But anyone, back to the subject at hand.

The thing that got me going was looking trying to find some inspiration or any simple means even short term motivation to get me back here and to at least write a few lines. But nothing. I thought long and hard ... hhmmm ... yeah that too, but anything where I could get my fat ass in this chair long enough to write something, anything, that means anything to anyone and not just myself. Something where this self-imposed, almost self-created ADD is not going to rule my life. I mean, my God already! A little focus please. A little consistency. I mean finish what you started, but Jesus please? Yes I do pray and did about this as well. But can I stick with something! And then I thought. If it was worth anything that meant anything, I probably would ... I would. It’s not that hard to figure it out. I just would. And even though I didn't put it up there in the list, the relationship is a definite in that. [Brace yourself tangent/rant coming in 3…2…1. ] Just waiting on that special someone who feels like I do, but waiting for things to fall into her little space. I know better, but I cannot give or make people what I know onto others. No matter how much I want it or them. And maybe I know, but to a point. Nah, forget that I know, but before the grace of God go I. Right? So I shoosh for now, and for a while too. LOL ... Hey, it is a blog so I can LOL all I want. [Tangent/rant over] Did I lose you? Sorry a little tangent there, maybe a slight rant. Had to edit and put that update in there cause even I was like. Holy Crap! So anyways … back at it … But what I needed to get at (here we go), and let this be a reminder to myself, was what was and is going to make me happy. I mean other than love, cause for that's where all this stems from and comes from. All positive directiveness has come from Love. There is no way around it. It just is. But, my thing here is that with that not really being a factor in my life right now what is going to get me to that point? I mean love is from the inside and out approach, but what outside factor can lead me to the inside? And not that that was my thought or intention, but after thinking on it some. It has come to that where once I threw stuff out there I was like "yeah, right." And even "holy shit!" I love it when I come up with these little bouts of genius. It honestly doesn't take much really. But what I came up with was "productivity." Yes, that and being mindful while doing it. I've been doing it all along, but I didn't realize how much I was in the 'zone' when being productive. So I then wrote, yes, actually wrote, and not typed, the things that made me productive and things that made me happy. And most shared the same commonality. They shared in each other’s definition or root-cause. So not only am I happy when being productive, but I think that I am doing a worthwhile cause. At least with my time. And that's important. A little footnote here. As I write this and have not yet proofread or edited it yet, I am very much aware of my writing this coming off a little "Forrest Gumpish," maybe even "Karlish" (Sling Blade) and maybe even a little "Warren" (There's Just Something About Mary) fames. But as simple as my approach and dialect … well … it's working. I don't need to complicate my life any further than it already is. I think with a simpler and yes even a dumber down approach to my life it might open up other things. I'm not only confident in that, but I'm pretty sure it's true as is.

So the thing is listing the things that make you productive. Whether it be cleaning, organizing, exercising, doing/running errands, whatever it may be that you find that stimulates your mind, body, and soul. All working together for one cause, making you happy! You can and I even suggest aside from being productive is write down the things that make you happy that have nothing to do with being productive, but I wouldn't start limiting or using negative/subtractive thinking right off the bat. Just write down what makes you happy. Eating ice cream, watching a movie on TV, going to the movie theatres, playing/listening to music. See right there, playing music is productive. Keep going. My point is that just the thought of these things. Internal/external, who cares? The thought of these things, deeds, actions, thoughts, rumblings; sparks creativity, ignites happiness, and motivates oneself to not only do, but to just be. See you read all this here and you didn't have to go to Border's or Barnes & Noble to pick up a self-help book. You read it here. “Mmmm hhmmm,” as Karl Childers would say.

Well, I hope I helped anyone coming in stopping to read a line or two. I know I've helped me out just a little bit. But I thought I would share my brief revelation of getting out of a rut And then again, I could be full of shit and maybe its just Spring around the corner and that has always motivated me out of the cave. I'm thinking it's a little bit of both. Thanks again for stopping by. Love to all.

~D

The Exec's Bail Out

I have been watching with some interest to this bail out of the so-called Big 3 automakers of the U.S. Without any elaboration and further rumblings and discourse and my apologies to those who may be lucky enough to live under a rock or a cave for that matter. All seem so appealing to me right now. This whole mess with our chief auto makers has to make even the most centered and enlightened being pissed to no end. I think of other automakers around the world. And foreign auto makers that build here in the U.S. It seems these people just don't get it. But I digress. The only way to stop these people from making shite. Is to stop buying their cars. Period. That’s it. When they get it right we will reward them with our money. Until then let's do the sane thing. Let's bail our more unfortunate players out there. Ahh, so it's an investment thing is it? Great. Maybe the Dems are right, maybe we should turn to a more socialistic form of government? Well, to say they're not is a lie. But to get away from the finger pointing and to stay on the subject when is enough enough? I think it is sad and unfortunate that this is happening. Not much we can do about this. Except complain and blog away. I could provide a hundred solutions. Right here. But who would read, who would listen' who would care? Just probably the people who read this stuff and want to stay connected, to something bigger and better than cars, us.

Waxing poetic?

Or is it just a start? I would like to think a little bit of both, but when it comes like thunder and hits you like lightning the obvious answer is ... is that it's a lot of both. Sometimes the subtleties are so overpowering it is quite similar to that with gout sufferers. As in "the weight of a sheet." Universal trends, codes, symbols, generators, clues to the big picture that initially presented with whispers, hints, and subliminals. In threes, in tandems, and repeaters in unisons give it away. Captcha's even present themselves to you. To identify human or machine, "clearoccur". How about having the same meaning with two entirely extracted words that have no relation to each other. The only similarity is that each word is mentioned in it's own definition. Therefore the relation of one relies on the other, giving it's own power. And the power of two together equals a stronger and more powerful one. The difference in all these and if being the same thing and/or relating or not. What I call, “Unarelatin.” Have and relating to all and all are one. Are these things ephemeral in nature or are they something more in a “waxing” type of universal truth or presentation?

Touching below the surface

You've only gone so far. You've only really just tapped the surface. you need to dig deeper, explore further. Don't hold back and don't limit yourself. let it all out. Be the tiger and go after it. Don't just think it. The leopard, the wolf, the bear. Attack it. Become and attack. Let those who question question. They do not know, they don't need to know. If they did they wouldn't ask or need to ask or need validity. You do the same thing and how do you feel? You are not better but you do the same as them sometimes. How does it feel? You feel vulnerable and insecure. Your depths are exposed for who you think they are and who you think you are sometimes. Don't. Stop. Think clearly. Take a breath, stand back if you have to. You're getting there you just need to not only see it, but you need to walk it and they will see, then you will have no need for validity, approval. Your decision is your decision. It is now.

Clichés' clichés' (self-actualization accomplished, realized)

Don't follow in anyone's shadows. Don't go chasing waterfalls. Don't get in anyone else's realm. Stick to your guns. Clichés' clichés'. Yes, but aren't all clichés' pretentious or not, real? True and the like? Yes, no? Rhetorical? Hello? The truth is just like an old Yamaha commercial in response to Honda's, "Follow the Leader,” Yamaha’s, "Don't Follow Anyone," should ring true. Follow your own path, so to speak. Or just walk it. There are many signs out there. Which one you/I follow is up to you, but the signs bare repeating cause sometimes, often times they do. In 3's even. Or they come again, yes, the come again. And the reminders turn to nudges and nudges turn to pushes and pushes turn to shoves. So when are you going to get it? I think you do. It's all coming back. It’s all there. You know what to do. Do it! Do it! Do it! Dreams into visions, into songs, into memories. The list is open and unfolds. It is long, but you remember. You remember it all. Play it back, play back all. Now create and play it forward. There, the presentation ... it is complete. The presentation is you. You!

Now go do. And be done. But not finished, until more. More of You.

This should have preceded the first Blog. But Oh well what the hell. Yes, I am footnoting a horoscope after a posting with part in due to a posting. I didn’t think it was gonna take. It did and I want to put in the thanks and gratuities. OK? Great. If you want, just ignore this if you will. It's a time stamp. Thanks.

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November 09, 2008

Today's Taurus Horoscope
April 20 - May 20

You are slow by nature when it comes to making a big decision, and that can't change just because someone in your life wants it to! There is no point in rushing through things just to keep someone quiet -- if you're not clear on what you want to do, or you're not confident about what is going on, you have to put the brakes on. Convince the impatient person in your life that you know what you're doing. They might need a little reassurance from you, so get ready to do some hand holding.

Romance
Don't be afraid to share your feelings with your loved one today. If something is on your mind, they can help you find a solution. Just talking about it will make you feel better.

Technical
You spend so much time rushing around during your work week that you could almost forget that you're slow by nature. Almost. Today is your day to remember who you really are.

This is just a start

As I look from the grass I can see where I am, where I've been, and in a sense where I'm going. It's about time I do this so let's get this baby off the ground. Shall we?

So I’m lifting off from my town I see reasons to leave, more to stay. Parents keep me here and so do others as well. I thank them, and the Lord, for keeping me. Even on crazy Saturday, Nomad Day I call it. I look all over this place in West Springfield and take a look at my parents place in Ludlow. Making sure everything is ok there. I just left there a while ago, but I was there earlier doing the same thing I am now. Laying flat up on my bed and then sitting up somewhere looking out through the trees into the sky. But it was dark, as it is now dark, and there were stars. So now I'm high about Mass. and looking all around New England. It's mostly quiet and peaceful. I like nights like this, when it's quite. I'll get to my beer later. That tells me that I have accomplished something.

Yes this is not only a step, but an accomplishment as well. You'll tell God that I got this far for only in my dreams I could do this, but now the ball is outstretched into this thing. The world will have to read it from here. I've read many and transcripts too many to name, but I will and will put them here. I will footnote often and give thanks and praise to those that have come before me and have scribed once and some often. Some without thinking as yes this I am trying to do. There are no rough drafts here. Cause the Rough is the Final post here. I will let you know if I edit, I will let you know my thoughts, plans (if any), and my moves, actions and reactions. But they’re maybe not all commented and written here, but I will share as much as I can. I will elaborate on things that made need explaining. Even the editing I feel should be explained. Upon corrections in grammar, mechanics, and spelling, they will be listed. So back to the ether sphere.

So I'm above New England and the air is cooler now. Perfect for post Halloween weather. I look to the south where I laid many tracks down. Florida, Alabama, Georgia. Seeing if there is anything for me now. I don't see a need, but feel a thankfulness and appreciation of where I've been. I'm moving up a little higher and looking to the west, Texas, and seeing some friends. Maybe friends I should have hung onto. Continue the view to the west to Arizona, California. Not much for me there ... but was there. Turning up north, maybe some trek time in Montana and Wyoming. Moving back to the east and I see the mid-west. A pause and reflect of a loss love, but hopeful of love again. True love and the right person? There's no sense in giving up hope. If that's all you got then keep it, but if it keeps the heart afloat, give it that one little thing. If it's false don't try to fool it. Things will figure themselves out. So I'm way up and looking down on things. See Chicago and some sites. The lakes even as I give one last glance at Wisconsin some other sites to kid myself. Turn back to the sky, black with stars, too beautiful for words. This site truly worth them all and more. So at least we know what were after, don't we. The best of all possible worlds. Between heaven and earth. Why not make it so. So things are down for a bit. Things are down everywhere. This is just a little escape here. This doesn't have to be a separate account, a vent even. No this is part of the piece.

So I'm looking up to the heavens and at the top north of the globe. Too beautiful not to recognize, too precious not to keep, too lasting not to want to stay. So let's stay and give this a try. A real faithful try. I could come here again. I could come here often. Something tells me that I should. So as with any type of inspiration, this one that light a fire will keep bringing me back, here. And I will give you my views from the place in the grass, or on the roof, or from my window, but I'll be mostly outside when this stuff comes and I will come running back in here to tell you about it.

I'm coming back down now, a little sad of what I left behind, but I will return, you can bet on that. No promises, but it looks like I will. I hope I gave you a little vision, a hope, I dunno, something to hold you over. I'm easing into my body again and welcoming it back thanks for taking the time away. This mean more than you know. So let's do this again shall we. Thanks. And thanks for reading and listening.

~D